Could today be any worse?  I thought that the Dr. was going to release me today but it was not to be.  I was really looking forward to this horrible nightmare,that most people call the workman's compensation system, to come to an end.  It just doesn't seem to happen . . . first see one Dr. then see another, just so tired of it.  Didn't sleep much last night but in the short amount of time I did I dreamed that my nemesis, AKA Dr. Stagg, walked in the room and handed me what was once my leg (now amputated, obviously) and a piece of paper and said "Your free to resume your life in what ever manner you see fit", handed me my former limb and left the room.  How appropriate.  I feel some days like them removing it would be a relief but as a diabetic it is also my biggest fear.  Working again, now there is a dream that I could get into if only it could be a reality.  I'm a RN and I loved my job for the most part.  I've found myself with to much time on my hands since I haven't worked in over 2 years now.  See I had a small accident due to the negligence of my employer and hurt my knee.  Should have been no big deal except for this small neurological problem I developed called Complex Regional Pain Syndrome.  Please don't ask me what it is . . . I'm not exactly sure and unfortunately neither is the medical community.  All they can tell me is that it happens for some unknown reason, they don't completely understand it nor do they completely know how to treat it.  Some people recover . . . some don't.  Even better news, it can advance to other joints including the spine and it can in some cases be fatal.  Hmmmm, well I'm having a hard time buying it . . . tired of the whole mess but I guess it could be worse.

Today

Wonder where this world is taking me next.  Can't really say that I've enjoyed where it's taken me so far but I'm game to keep on the journey because basically I have no choice.  I spent the day with my daughter and new born granddaughter today.  It's amazing when your baby becomes a Mother for the first time.  I think I could sit and watch her holding her baby for a couple of hours and never say a word.  I've loved her since the minute I found out I was pregnant.  Don't get me wrong we have had our ups and down but basically she is a great kid.  She has been my rock through so many hard times.  I never thought I would see the wonder of her being a Mom.  So glad I didn't miss at least the beginning of this journey.  So sad to see other's end.
I've never written a blog before but I have so many things I want to say that I thought it would be a good idea.  And whom may you ask am I writing this blog for (who do I want to read it?) absolutely no one until I'm gone would be the answer.  But I do want those I leave behind to know how very much I Love them!!!